I can hardly believe that today is the last day of 2008. It feels like it only just started yesterday. I don’t know about you guys, but for me, 2008 was an insanely, crazy busy year. I know a lot of people are looking back over the year, and I’m about to join their ranks. I just can’t help myself.
Part of what inspired this post was a fortune from a fortune cookie. Not one that I just got but one that I got at the beginning of last year. I noticed it on my bulletin board in my office as I was taking everything down and boxing it all up for painting. The quote read; “This year you will focus on family.” How true that statement was! For you see, my visits to the Specialist started in January. Probably just a week, or maybe even days, after receiving that fortune.
Many folks don’t know my history, and I won’t go into a lot of details here today, but my dh and I have wanted children for some time now, but due to my issues we’ve encountered one problem after another. Finally I was referred to this Specialist (A practice that was also recommended to me from a friend) and I made the call. And so began one of the most self-learning journeys of my life.
After one surgery and many tests, I started on a path of wellness. One that required I visit the doctor’s office almost every day. In fact, I did visit the doctor every day for a month solid. Which turned into other treatments and other avenues.
In all honesty, it was intense. Very much so. So much so that I actually turned inward a lot of the time and would just cry for no reason at all. As the monthes went on, time became less and less as I became more focused. My schedules were very rigid and didn’t allow me much time for anything else. I pushed everything aside. And to my family and friends, if I ignored you or anything I am sorry. I did have some friends who knew what I was going through, and it helped to have people I could talk too. But mostly, I just put all of my words and thoughts down in a personal journal. In return, my blog suffered. I’m very sorry for that as well.
Still, I pushed on and never gave up hope. And then finally in August I found out I was pregnant. The happiest day of my life. And thus began another, very different journey. One that included more doctor vists and a kind of sickness that I’d never known. The term “Morning Sickness” is a joke. It’s all day and night sickness.
I’ve learned alot about myself and what I’m capable of over the course of this last year. I’ve grown. I’ve changed. I’m not the same person I was at the start of the year. And I have the gray hairs to prove it! Seriously, I don’t think these words have ever been more true. And I know that I’ll be saying them again next year and meaning them with as much vigor as I do now as I embark on a new life where the two of us becomes the three of us.
This is my biggest and most important accomplishment to date. Now I have 15 weeks to go! I can hardly believe it.
I don’t want the above to imply that I didn’t do anything other than visit doctors. But I did want to stress where my head was at for the majority of the year. Alot of things suffered but I did still managed to do a lot of things.
I managed to write, edit, submit, revise, resubmit, edit, and see a story published in 2008. Should it have been more. . . Well, we’ll leave that unanswered for now because this post isn’t about what should have been. It’s about what was.
I also wrote a first draft of two other stories. They are not edited yet, but then that’s another post… As in a post of new goals post.
I bought a sewing machine and started teaching myself how to sew. I did manage to sew a few things. One that turned out really well if I do say so myself.
I also found an interest in canning. Well, kind of. I didn’t actually can anything. But I did make freezer jam. And since I’m almost out of the jam, I’ll be making more of it in the new year.
I don’t know about you all, but I have to say, this has been a very successful year and I’m looking forward to more successes in 2009!